Tentang seseorang.

Kulari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku

kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku

sepi, sepi dan sendiri aku benci

aku ingin bingar aku mahu di pasar

bosan aku dengan penat

enyah saja kau pekat

seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai

biar mengaduh sampai gaduh

ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang di tembok keraton putih

kenapa tak goyangkan saja locengnya biar terdera

atau aku harus lari ke hutan

belok ke pantai?

GYS 2010

OMG! Tomorrow wud be the DAY. It's GYS people! It stands for Global Youth Symposium. I'm so darn excited. Do support us dearies. Wish us luck!:)

Oh silly me.

You know what the worst feeling in the world is?

When someone you have been crushing on forever,

when someone you love with all your heart,

when someone gives you butterflies when he walks by,

when someone you dream about everyday,

and someone you would give absolutely anything to,

feels the same way 

just not about you.

Hmmmm......

Deep down, immense pain

Longing to be loved...

" Its twitching again and again and again. And now it felt numb. Whats happening to me?"

Daddy's little pride.

The question here is, are you really a daddy's little pride?

Answer: Nahh, I don't think so. But hate the fact that I resembled him in so many ways. 

Tried too hard being oblivious bout that fact. However each day, its getting obvious

and can't be denied. I'm becoming him in a sense.

The anger, the frustration, the fear, the low self-esteem, EVERYTHING.

Everything that I got or acted upon, resembled him.

Ugghh! Really hate that.

I don't wanna be him. I don't wanna be like him. I don't wanna see myself as him. 

Gosh, I know I'm a sinner to say this out loud but hate that I hate him so much.

Why? 

Hmm.

I'm not the person who I used to be.

I'm not a saint and no more am I a naive girl nor innocent 

in flowing the reality of life.

I MISSED MY OLD ME.

I MISSED ME.

*It's official, I'm a nutcase*

T__________T

Hijrah?

New resolution? New determination? 

New oath? New pledge?

New purpose?

New what?

I want a NEW ME!

Oh please oh please oh please......

R: Do you have any purposes/targets/aims in your life so far?

I: Nope, do we have to?

R: DEFINITELY! Duuhhh. *slaps forehead*

I: *double the sigh* I know. So, what should I do now?

R: Buckle up and organize your freagin life back on track will you? 

I: HOW?

R: Do I need to teach you on this? Like seriously? -____-"""

I: Hmm, ok. I ll try my best. 

R: So, lets list down your priorities as for now.

I: Ok2. 

List of IfaM priorities:

1. Family (wtv shits happens, keep your head straight and DON'T EVER DO STUPID STUFF anymore!)
2. STUDY!!!! (even if you're on holiday, you shouldn't waste it off dear. Bare that in mind! Revise!!)
3. GYS (*Bangs head on the floor* Must check out all those emails and aliases with KS by TODAY!)
4. House chores  

So, what else are you waiting for IfaM?

Life doesn't wait for you to catch up.

Its you who the one that needs to do all the catch ups.

So, run IfaM run! 

CATCH UP!

Fish cake!

I think I just did something which is beyond stupidity

which is so not me.

*cringe* 

I felt sick inside out T_____T

Help meeeeeee!!!

Not gonna repeat that, not gonna repeat that ever again. 

*crossed fingers*

*gulp*

Cough cough

COUGH COUGH!!

Could you please stop doing that 

my dear throat? Cz its getting damn itchy each time I coughed.

Don't make me pull you out and scratch it out 

till it bleeds. You don't want that to happen right? Right?

SO, PLEASE STOP COUGHING

pleasssseeeee

T_______________T

" I wanna end this suffering real bad. Cz if I'm sick, I ll be all grumpy and bitchy at the same time. Hmm."

Random thoughts

Hoyehhh, HOLIDAY baybehh HOLIDAY!

Q&A Session:

So are you happy? Definitely.

What will you do for the rest of your holiday? Being a full time maid at family's crib

*ehemms, a sexy french maid mind you*

So, again, are you happy? Err *pause**hesitate a bit* Definitely.

-_______________________-""""

Fine lah fine. A bit unhappy cz not gonna spend ma holiday at a white sandy beach with clear blue water. Just because ma & pa are super duper busy with their work, doesn't mean I can't do devilish rush going adrenaline sorta activities no?  Muahahaha. There are some hidden tricks underneath the sleeves ya know. Must reserve it for the worst boring possible day ever *evil laugh* 

Bye.

Monster E has perished

 On a blue sunny day,

out of sudden came this one big horrendous monster 

rummaging into a town called

I-Town.

It's called as Monster E!!!!

The people of I-Town was so devastated of its existence

and dare not to go out from their house.

But fear NOT!

SuperIfa is there to protect them.

She fought real hard with Monster E.

It was said to be the most gruesome battle that they ever seen in their lives.

She fought and fought and fought with all her might and heart.

Finally SuperIfa won the battle but with cuts and bruises.

Unfortunately,Monster E got escaped and perished into thin air.

I-Town is once again at peace. 

BUT

SuperIfa knew at any moment Monster E would definitely come back and haunt them. 

 As for now, she will keep on staring at the peach black of sky 

and keep on hoping that that horrible monster wont gonna 

visit them soon. 

*finger crossed*

*Monster E here resembles Examination

*SuperIfa here resembles IfaM muahahaha

P/S: Exam da habis. Tgh tggu result Family Law keluar *gulp*

       Miracles do happen, miracles do happen, miracles do happen, miracles do happen

       Agghhh, stress.

       Agghhh, nak mkn lah.

       Bye.